NaNoWriYe Day 240

So I figured out why I'm disgusted by blogging most of the time. I need something more original than sticking my chosen name in front of some company's name. I need to buy a domain. I've gotten some clues from reliantfc3, so I'm going to see how my college funds go in September and October and maybe buy a domain then. I thought about buying it in December, but I think I want one for NaNoWriMo.

Eh, we'll see. T_T

I am still about 5K behind.

Argh.

NaNoWriYe Day 237

While I am not the best updater in the universe, at least I do remember to come back. I'm completely stumped on Circle of Nimue, but I opened up The Silver Pantheon again and gave it another go. I wrote two and a half chapters and I hope to make it three chapters today. Especially since I'm a whopping 6.5K behind.

I haven't verified words since *May*. MAY. So I updated the best I could and despaired at the hundreds of little negative signs in my Excel chart. But The Silver Pantheon is entertaining me for now until I get my brains working for CN again.

NaNoWriMo is, by now, a growing threat, even though it's still several months away. I want this to be my year. I want to write "The End" on my 2008 NaNovel. It'd be nice, instead of writing 50K+ words and then leaving it in the dusty, dark files of my USB drive. We'll see what happens.

NaNoWriYe Day 149

Dissatisfaction. Is the worst feeling in the world. I just feel so dissatisfied with myself, or maybe overpowered. Even my own blog makes me feel a little disgusted. I wouldn't be surprised if I took it down soon. My artistic self (writing, art, photography, blogging, everything) is just taking a toll from some invisible force. I read a blog post today where a girl I consider a dear friend said "I have a hundred unfinished writings" and she doesn't care, because they are ideas and they're sitting in her computer, waiting for her.

At first, it made me feel better.

And now I'm back to feeling like crap again.

I think I might need a break from this artistic thing.

NaNoWriMo Day 136

I've gone and lost count of my words again, because I'm a lazy sod, but also because I haven't been writing much lately. Unless you count those massive stories with Gene that are NOT SUITABLE FOR PUBLIC CONSUMPTION. Not even scrambled. >_< I'm hoping that since summer has *finally* begun, I can catch up with myself and recount everything I've missed. Log back into Spork Room and fill out those prompts, write a prompt for Vindie's #3 because I HAVEN'T because I am LAZY and UNINSPIRED.

Bleck. It's been a crappy year for writing.

NaNoWriYe Day 115

Progress: 78K. THANK YOU EIKA for all those marvelous prompts.

Progress on Circle of Nimue: 200 words. T_T I am at the most ridiculous impasse ever. Thanks for getting stuck in a forest (literally!)

Other Progress: Ideas for NaNoWriMo! MEEP! Once AGAIN, THANK YOU EIKA. Those prompts are lifesavers. I was looking over my replies and I got two of the happiest plot bunnies! I just hope they don't die by the time November rolls around. O_O

Status: Still exhausted.

Random Notes: I just realized. Years participated in NaNoWriMo? Two. Novels actually FINISHED? Ze-ro.

I lost interest in them after a while; they got out of hand. *sighs* I are insane.

NaNoWriYe Day 112

Progress: 75K.

Circle of Nimue progress since last update: Close to zilch. Should most likely rectify that.

Ideas for November: Circle of Nimue sequel (Gah, I'll need to finish number one first!). Completely new theme (if I wanted to kill myself, maybe. T_T)

Status: Exhausted.

LIFE RULES: On the Scariness of Roller Coasters and the Satisfaction of Saying Yes

Life Rule #10: "Just met" is not just an obstacle, it's the accelerator to what might prove a rocking roller coaster ride. Love it, live it, go with it. Be scared, be amazed, be loved, be happy. "Just met" will no longer be an obstacle.

(Thank you for coming into my life. My only regret was that it wasn't sooner.)

Life Rule #11: "No" might be the way to stand strong, but there is satisfaction and happiness to be found in saying "yes".

(Thank the gods I didn't let my sensibilities rule my mouth.)